To the angels in my life.....

As Lord Byron said “The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain.”Absolutely true..We all have it in us to smile through the troubled times.But there are times when we try to smile through our sorrows at the wrong people..Rather the right people..
People who can see right through us.People who can see the tears hidden in our smiles..who can sense the hollowness of our laughs...They have this uncanny sense of smelling trouble miles away..People who just shout "You dont need to smile like that you idiot!!!So whats eating you??"
Now tell me how do you smile at questions like this or dismiss it with a wave of your hande..You can't right??
These people are your souls readers..People who can interpret the volumes behind your silence...They just shrug and wear that all import look and stat off their lectures putting their hearts to make us smile..
Did I hear Angels???We exist in pain because of them..they raise us off or feet when we have problem remembering we have wings to fly...They sit by you..crack stupid jokes,cry with you..or simply hug you tight to let you know they'll be with you...
Even if the whole world walks out on you they'd still hold your hands tight and tell you there is still hope in this world...No matter what with friends like this nothing..take my word nothing is impossible...
Before I sleep every night I pray "Oh God,Please let my guardian angels' dreams come true..."

Aaaarrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Aaaarrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
Its such a meaningless blog..i know that..and the worst part is that I dont give a damn....
I'm bugged and royally bugged..for reasons best known to me...I just wanted to vent out my anger..the best way was to write it down..but then my diary is at home..my lone solace turned out to be my much ignored blog...hence you my blog has been used as a chimney to vent out my anger which other wise would have created a noise pollution with my rising decibels...detrimental to me and to others...haaa..i feel so much better...

So another discovery by me..whwnever you feel angry..take up a blog...vent it out....
u feel so much better..try it out buddy..it works...i feel better..my kettle form is out..i'm angry but i wouldnt burst out...

Etymology(changed on public request)!!!!!!!

I've got a hobby...its dangerously unconventional..But I would say its same as painting..Like a an artist mixes colours in his palette and bring out those vibrant shades,I believe words are like colours..Like colours have emotions words also have them..from happy to euphoric and from euphoric to ecstatic...they are all subtle shade variations of a single emotion-joy...each word is so different yet so similar...like the shades of green..its olive green,parrot green or apple green...but its just green at the end of it...the root is green...
And my hobby is to disintegrate the words to find the root..to find the meaning from atomic level...Its a lovely feeling to find out the meaning of a word from roots..Its like a cryptic crossword...you are blind folded..but you grope your way to the goal..there's Latin,there's the french and the mighty Greeks who've influenced the English language...
A penchant to atomize words (tome->a small part of a huge volume,atom-->something that cannot be cut up further) -my hobby...
Probably like numismatics i'll call myself a tomwordphile or something... :) :)...
The world of linguists have always fascinated me...the books that took me to never never lands and the words that helped me reveal the thoughts of my heart......

I simply love words....

The joy of solitude..............

This would be a small one...There isnt much to write either..Its about a strange overwhelming thought I have been having these days..I'm enjoying the fact that I'm alone..I'm leading a life devoid of any social commitments...No one to come home to...No friend to go out with...In a way I've started enjoying it..I love those saturday afternoon strolls I take to the book store down the street..I enjoy the morning walks to bus stop....It's dangerously heart warming...Yet I'm savouring it...
From somebody surrounded by friends I've miraculously evolved into a solitary creature!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life leaves me clueless..

Life leaves me clueless...Its like a vagrant breeze..When things look very clear it suddenly turns murky..The shallow waters turn deep..You suddenly realise there are different realms to a very simple relation..it just leaves you shocked and unsure..
But I guess I just love these relations in my life..They might be confusing,irritating and may be even painful at times..But it still wraps me in a cosy blanket of love and friendship..And once more I feel secure midst of people whom i love and adore in a cold world of realities....
I just love my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!n offcourse people without whom I cannot call it one......

A Smile for a Gift...

Thought of those gloomy times when some stranger brought a smile to your face??Like the baby on the bus who caught your finger and gurgled off..or the lil school kid who smiled at you promptly..You cant help but smile..and atleast for a moment you forget your worries and smile at life..these thoughts bring to me the memories of a hot august afternoon..I was in office,the work was hectic..I had a number of tasks to do..Top it off I had some work in the bank and I had to leave early..I had come early to office that day..I skipped my lunch and kept working..I left the office around two..Waited around half an hour for the city bus..(Lemme tell you something bout the buses around here..u ought to wait for atleast 30-45 min..offcourse u have bus time tables..but u must be kidding if they come by the timings..)..Finally i got a bus and off i went to the bank..Thankfully it wasnt crowded..I got my work done..By the time the formalities were over my head was spinning..(I could even count stars in that hot afternoon..)By the time i was saying a 'Thank you' to the cashier i was contemplating the menu of my lunch...all possibilies ended up with a board 'Sorry ma'm it's 3.30 we're closed'..so i started walkin towards the bakery to buy biscuits..(how i hate them.aarghhhhh!!!!)..Then suddenly i saw the Pizza hut board..My brain started off "Diet,Diet,Diet.."Now i got a growling stomach and a watering mouth..I asked my brain to shut up and put off my dieting to the next day..I walked in pushing the glassdoor..To my surprise the ever buzzling place was calm n quiet..the ground floor was empty..

This pizzahut guy comes in and ushers me to the first floor..I sit down quietly in a two seater and give my orders for my lunch..He's pretty surprised when i order for one person..he asks me'Ma'm what out your friend??'..i smile at him wearily and tell..'There's nobody else..i'm having my lunch alone..'As i wait for my orders to come..I look around to see a lot of college kids having a blast of a time..i muse over my college friends..yes i miss them..a lot..i miss my friends..i was somebody who hates going alone..i hated walking back alone to my hostel..(i had my best friend escort me to the hostel..)..let alone have lunch alone...n here I am sitting in a corner alone..I already wanted to run..run??to where??probably back into time..wanted to go back to my college gallery..back to the good ol college canteen..be there with my friends and have a nice lunch.."Ma'm your pizza is ready.Shall I serve ??"..my train of thoughts were broken.."No thanks,i think i can manage.."I murmered struggling to go baxk to my thoughts..I finished my lunch silently..My stomach was full and was waiting to push off by the time my bill came..When the change came , i was in for a surprise..Oh..I couldnt help but smile..Off course there was no discount..there was my change and...i couldnt help but smile..it started as a confused sort of grin and ended up in a wide smile...Ya with the bill was a handwritten note for me.."Thank you for choosing Pizzahut..Hope you enjoyed your meal!!!" and a huge smiley.. :-)..signed 'so-so'...Probably he was reading my thoughts and felt i needed a cheering up...I looked around for this guy..but couldnt see him..I climbed down the stairs with a smile on my face...I rung the bell at the entrance..this time with a lil more force,i lil longer..cos this one came from my heart..

Yes he made me smile that sunny afternoon...

PS:I still got that bill in my purse...Even if it goes from there..the memory is gonna be there for a long long time...