Sunday, August 9, 2009

Way side station

Sunday, August 9, 2009
You have pleasant memories about the station you got down
on a long tiring journey..had a cup of coffee..relaxed as the train waited...
flexed and rejuvanated yourself...But then that is not your destination...
Neither am I...You eventually move on...and I remain a way side station in your journey of life..

Thursday, January 22, 2009

It happened to me...Again..

Thursday, January 22, 2009
It was a lazy Saturday afternoon and I was pretty much jobless. Staring at the ceiling and feeling the cool breeze I was singing myself a lullaby.

That was when suddenly my phone rang breaking the tranquility like a spear…
I lavished on my bed not even flitching my eyebrows…

After 7 years away from home I’m sensible enough to understand that my home landline doesn’t ring for me anymore..(Sigh Sniff Sniff)
Unlike my school days..(haa those were the days)…When 9 on 10 calls were for me…

“Lazy Bum!!!!!!!!!!!!Do I have to run from the other end of the house to pick the call..???Why cant you do it…” bellowing mum…

I give her a lazy wave of my hand and prayed for peace…

“Lekhaaaaaaaaaa…Call for you”

For me??!!! I jump up…who could be it??Friend???Long lost crushes??? I run to the telephone excited…

I clear my throat and say a very sweet “Hellooo…”

“Hey Dumbs!!Its me G3”

“You.???Shucks… I thought….Anyways…whats up??”

“Ohh…you thought it was one of those jobless crushes??Come on darls there are a lot of prettier girls in town these days..(She can be dead blunt sometimes)..Ya in case you got nothing to do come over…Mom has made something you like…”

“Yipeeeeeeee..”I banged the phone…Anything for food…

I change and run to her place….As I turned the corner to her place..I froze…The heavens have definitely been conspiring…That was him…To date the most handsome guy I had a crush on…(That is if you could exclude Cruise,Pitt,Cage and Fraser)
I could hear violins and suddenly remembered Shah Rukh and Sush in Main Hoon Na….

I could feel my heart in my throat when he flashed that brilliant smile..
Did some one say butterflies???I could feel some in my tummy..

He recognized me…I wanted to jump. Then I remembered I was wearing the most faded of all my T-shirts…

I was visibly shaken and managed a weak smile…

“Hey Pretty girl where have you been…Long time…Had missed having familiar faces around…”

(Eh…Did he say that??He was missing me..Well ehem ehem familiar faces include me also…)


“Ohh was away with work..How bout you??”

For five minutes he kept talking bout his work and blah blah…
All I did was tilt my head and smile…And occasionally do that MadhuBala act of blinking my eyelids…I could see the street disappear…Saw just both of us…in a creamy rosy hue…I could hear the angels singing,stinging their harps…A song sweet and melodious…A cool breeze swept past us…

“Hey…You forgot you purse…!!!” A deep voice broke through the angel songs…

I shook myself back to realty…I saw a pretty thing trotting down the street....

“Hey thanks dear…Meet my wife Divya..You weren’t around when we got married…”

My eyes would’ve just popped out and looked like hanging icicles!!!

I swallowed hard..”Nice meeting you Divya..”
(rite..It was not the heavens but devils conspiring…grrrrr)

I could see him smiling down at her as I chimed in my weak introductions…I was barely listening while she went on their first meetings and marriage…

They were so much in love…
(Sniff sniff…)

As I walked back I said a silent prayer for their happiness and mine too..
(Can’t you see a halo around me and two wings sprouting???)

Some day a prince charming, me, white horse and off course angels singing…


P: S:
Bible says, Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife err “husband”.

A sabbatical -Collateral Damages and Contingency Plans

I’m planning for a sabbatical…A pretty long one at that..Well I do sound “quarter life crisis”-ish…But that’s the truth..I need a break..Damn I sound like a 50 yr old…(I can see some grins which translate approximately into “you look one..” But I for one refuse to be provoked by such unholy thoughts and comments...)

That was when I decided to putdown my papers..(As to why I'm doing this I dont know)..I had a nice farewell speech rehearsed..Had tears in my eyes when I thought bout the things I would miss in mys..
Friends,Chamundi,Gym(Frequently bunked..) ,food err no no…Green Hotel…urs road..kukkarahalli kere…etc etc etc

After this big decision is made I decide to break this upon on future sponsers /care takers..Off course my parents…Their princess is back…I rehearse another one from my repertoire on my bleak life in mysore…

I tell them how bad things are. I whine, complain and exaggerate …
(Master of the game!!!)
I try all the weapons in a girl’s god given armoury…In between the sniffing and stifling sobs the decision to end the uneventful Infy career is proclaimed….

“Boooooom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Ha my ever resourceful mom unceremoniously reminds me that I have become a high maintenance project and would render their budgets useless…
She emphasizes on the bills she had frisked from my wallet and wardrobe…
Dad keeps a nonchalant stand suggesting it could be a passing phase and I would get bored here in Kochi ….
(My Dad has been avidly watching this same old drama ever since I started working..)
I bang the phone accusing them of disowning me when I needed them…
(Tactics baby tactics..Learn it right ,Use it Right!!!)

I refuse to accept what I know is the truth…The IT world has made me into every parents nightmare…A “shopaholic”couch potato…. By the time truth decides dawn upon me I’m well into the middle of a balancing act on a point heels on the slippery floors of Westside…(And you thought I quit on Shopping altogether?? Devil Forbid!!!)


No actually,whenever I read forwards on Rs 500 pocket money then and 20k carry home now I know its my life they are talking about…But rite now these are least of my concerns..
I want a break..Right now…

But my problems don’t end there…

I haven’t penned down all my problems, their collateral damages and the contingency I have for them…

So rite now ,if I decide to take a break my parents have refused to take ownership of any bills which come with classy looking shopping bags…
That would mean reduced shopping…(Well I think I can manage that…My Dad would hopefully help me out here and Mama Mia would soon loose her ground…Dream on Lady..Dream On..)
 
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